The one thing nobody tells you about studying abroad is how lonely it is. Sure, there’s the excitement of having nothing to hold you down, and being in a completely different culture. But that can often be a hindrance. As human beings we need connections. Ones which stabilize us and make us feel loved.
I told myself before coming out here that I was not to get attached – to anyone. But coming from a large family, where your support system is always there, it was only natural that I’d instinctively, if not unconsciously, try to reach out and find somebody. In truth, emotions can’t always be helped no matter what the situation, and for someone who 9 times out of 10 leads with their heart rather than they’re head it can be difficult.
Devoid of the multitude of bikini clad Instagram posts, I can honestly say I would’ve struggled massively had it not been for 5 specific people; Hanna, Laura, Lucy, Robyn and Ruth. These girls have been my absolute rock since being here.
There’s something about surrounding yourself with honest people, who see the world the same as you. That will go out of their way to help anyone, and you know that you can count on no matter what the situation, which says a lot about a persons character.
For some reason studying abroad causes a lot of people to discover alter egos, theres a lot of fakery from people, that I assume are good and honest at heart. Expecting the same treatment which I’ve given out here, has been a huge struggle for me. I expected that everyone would get along because everyone’s here for a good time. Instead, I found a lot of exclusion and cliques.
There’s also the regular drama which people face during your first year at uni. Though it’s only temporary, setting up house with complete strangers, and having an experience like I have, can be a complete nightmare.
I think there’s just something to be said about finding and surrounding yourself with real people; who have real goals and aspirations in life, who want real things and lift others up whilst they’re on the rise.
Thank you to everyone who has been here for me during this time, you’ll forever be in my heart.
P.S. this post has made me very aware of how we have somehow still not managed to get a picture of all 6 of us together.